2011

It's currently 9:15pm; only 2 hours and 45 minutes left in the year 2011.  And what a year it has been for me.


January:  I started off 2011 with a kiss, and a relationship with a man that I will always love.  I shared a glass of wine, and a toast with him and his family, and had an amazing time.  This was also the month that I was introduced to Kpop by someone who I used to be extremely good friends with.  The song that stole my Kpop virginity:  "Cry" by MBLAQ.  I listened to that song on repeat for days until I had it memorized, and could see the video playing in my head.

February:  The month that a part of me died.  I lost the man I loved in this month.  Things had moved too fast, and neither of us had dealt with personal issues we had.  Mine were my past relationships and the damage they did to me.  This was also a time when I stopped talking to pretty much everyone.  But it was also a month I'll never forget.  Not because of the bad, but because of the good too.

March: I dropped off the face of the earth for a while during this month.  This month was also probably the hardest ever this year.  On March 17th, my Granny died from pancreatic cancer.  I stood by her coffin the entire visitation.  And her funeral was the first I'd ever been to (besides my friend's mother's funeral, which was in December 2010).  

April:  I lost a good friend this month.  Things just got too complicated and messed up between us, and we both blew up at one another over the most ridiculous shit.  This was also the month I ran into my ex, the love of my life.  He compared his rebound girlfriend telling him that she was a lesbian to the fact that my Granny died two weeks prior.  As if it was more important.  I remembered why we wouldn't have worked out; he was too damn selfish.  He wanted to be friends.  I said no.  This was also the month I met a super cute Korean boy (courtesy of my friend).  Unfortunately, nothing happened between him and I.

Some time in February, March and April, I started expanding my love for Kpop.  I became extremely fond of MBLAQ's "Y" and "Stay," and Taeyang's "I Need a Girl."  I was to perform the dance to that song with a friend of mine (for funnsies), but thanks to school, it never happened.  I also started listening to Super Junior-M during this time.  My first song by them was "Sorry, Sorry."  My first biases:  KyuHyun and Zhou Mi.  SJ-M led to me Super Junior, and the first song I heard from them was "BONAMANA," which introduced me to my now ULTIMATE BIAS, SungMin.  "Sorry, Sorry" came after that.  And, of course, there was the release of SJ-M's "Perfection" during this time.  I remember having my computer out while I drove home from class that afternoon it was released, strategically having my mouse arrow on the "replay" button so I could lean over and play it again until I got home to look for it on iTunes.  Oh yeah, this was also the month I got a perm.

May:  I turned 20 this month.  At midnight, I had a friend call me and sing me Happy Birthday.  It was sweet.  After the phone call, I spent a few hours with my friend Jessica, who is probably one of my best friends.  She has been there for me during my toughest times, and I've always tried to do the same.  Though she doesn't wear her heart on her sleeve like I do.  I admire her toughness, and cool, calm demeanor.  This month, I chopped off all my hair and dyed it red.

June~August:  My summer was uneventful.  Mostly I spent a lot of time working and making money.  I believe I ended up spending it all on books.  This was before I went crazy and bought a bunch of Kpop. :3  Over the summer, I started casually chatting with my now ultimate-Kpop buddy, Alex.  He was going to be taking a Japanese class with me at my university, and I was excited to have someone I could talk to who was as in to Kpop as I was.  He exposed me to a little bit of Mandopop.  Show Luo's "Only You" and Wilber Pan's "Totally Wanted" became some of my favorite songs that I raped with the repeat function on my iPod.  I also spent much of my summer watching Sex and the City and Grey's Anatomy with Jessica.

September: Classes started.  And with September came U-KISS's "Neverland" and my first-ever Kpop purchase:  U-KISS's album Neverland, and their Taiwan special Forever First Kiss.  I ordered them from YesAsia.  I also started REALLY getting into Super Junior around this time.  I was exposed to "Mr. Simple" and fell in love with it.  I went nuts and started working insanely so I could save up for more Kpop.  I kept my computer opened to my overfilled YesAsia.com shopping cart as motivation.  I also got really into my Chinese class, and really into Mandopop.  It was around this time that I started listening to Han Geng's first album.  I am in love with his song "FIRE."

October:  The most interesting month definitely this year.  It started out with me driving to Nashville, Tennessee to volunteer at a Nashville Culture Festival, and by that evening, I had made some pretty awesome friends at a birthday party.  Around 3am, things got really weird when the birthday boy (a 30-year-old man) decided he wanted to feel me up and beg me for sex every hour.  And then there was Halloween.  Where I went to a party and within the first five minutes, got my ass groped by a drunk guy.  I went to another party were I was followed around by a man dressed in a Scream costume who would "trip" and grab onto the women there.  Oh, and I was followed by some weird dude who, I'm sure, was drunk AND high.  This month brought another dramatic hair style when I went to Paul Mitchells and had them cut my hair in the style that is now shown in my dA ID:  after SNSD's Sunny.  I was also slowly starting to become a SONE with the release of "The Boys," a song which I didn't like at first, but it slowly and slowly grew on me.

This was the month when I began writing Black-Colored Feathers, a fan fiction that has made me many friends.  Among those are:

& (my two dongsaengs)


And so many more, I don't think I could list them all!! I bonded with each of these people over our love for Kpop, Super Junior, and our biases.  

November:  By this month, my Kpop collection was booming.  I had discovered the wonders of eBay around this time and was going NUTS bidding on SJ and SNSD photocards.  I won several. X3  My favorites are definitely the three SungMin photocards I won.  I carry them with me EVERYWHERE.  BCF was also blooming during this time, as were my dA family.  

December:  And now.  I got even more Kpop for Christmas, which I spent in my own home, something I had never done in the 20 years I've been alive.  We always had Christmas at my Granny's, but...  Finals were hectic during this time, but I still made all A's and B's in my 16 hour course load this past semester.  I also became a board member for this honors society I'm in, the NSLS.  However, this was also a month of let downs, as I had two men stand me up.  Within a week of one another!  Like Jessica says:  I just have the worst luck with men.  I'm not allowed to have good ones.  Guess that means I'll just have to save up money, fly to South Korea, and marry my SungMin. ;3



This year has been happy.  This year has been sad.  It's been easy, and it's been super hard.  I've made new friends, and I've lost old ones.  I was introduced to Kpop and Mandopop, and subsequently became a proud E.L.F., a proud KissMe, a proud A+, and a proud SONE.  It is now 9:48pm.  I can't wait for the new year.


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!  My beloved watchers!